i think i am going bonkers .

this is only MYE but i am getting all so stress up. I think SS paper and obviously my CHINESE paper is doomed for sure. GAWD. Seriously is it that hard to pass or is it just me?

yesterday i saw something i was not suppose to see. I felt super uncomfortable. I could not tell anyone about it . Even i, myself, at first did not believe it. Later , i keep telling myself , i can t tell this to anyone. Because you cannot never look the same way at that person again. I was already so stressed up, thinking about it almost made me went retarded. I think my mother actually sensed something wrong. It took her quite a while to get me to say it. And when i finally spit it out, She said she saw it too. But both of us can only pretend nothing is wrong and go on with life. Why didn t she felt mad? Betrayed?

don t ask me what did i see.
i dun want to think about it anymore.

I hate MYE.